Log Book 10 - 29 - 11 / Down - But NOT Out !

Im SAD ... 

Its Nationals 

Im in Florida - not Arizona - where the meet is being held

No Team ( still ) 

SICK - and on meds to boot ! 

It has been SUCH a "challenging" time ...

I harbour the demons and resentments of "what ifs" and "how comes" 

I am left to embrace them 

Alone 

EVERYDAY 

At 50 - I hear that proverbial clock ... 

Tick Tock - TICK TOCK

There are lessons here to be learned 

For SURE 

Painful ... 

For SURE 

But 

Like the Phenoix I am ... 

I WILL Rise Again 

To Take 

Flight ! 

Log Book 10 - 16 - 11 / Judgement Day

I have been wrestling with my relationship with "the sky"
STILL
It has been one of the greatest challenges of my life
Sorting out ME, skydiving, JT, Bugs and Bones and the like ...
Totally overwhelming
STILL
GOOD News
Yesterday - I was given a "gift"
Through a series of events - that originally had me feeling left out and rejected ( again ) - I was able to participate in a meet as an adjudicator.
I met a wonderful man who took the time and effort to share with me his knowledge and methods of the process
I learned
I had FUN
And I took another step forward in re claiming my "stuff"